Observation of Thoughts

After long time today, I went for a walk. Its a goalless walk. Walk in concreate jungle and trying to avoid noise of this ambience though going through it. Strangely after sometime my thoughts just moves away from me. And suddenly i become, from thinker, an observer. Its abstract because not able to understand what observer is observing when there is no thoughts. Its really, i was thoughtless or its my manipulation with me of not aknowledging thoughts. But in last being a thoughtless is a nice feeling. Its makes you feel much better as each moment of life conciously or unconciously you are thinking. Roads are dark, but vision is clear, and I just keep on walking and later start running. In all this moments, I just remember my u-turn point.

Aaj Bachpan ne phir...

Aaj Bachpan ne phir,
Mujhe aapna saathi banaaya
Aur mujhe se nighao mein,
ek hi Sawaal puccha

Ki kahan bhool gaya tu,
Mujhe aapni Zindagi ki,
Jaddho jehad mein

Ki kahan bhool gaya,
tu aapni Masoomiyat ko

Aaj Bachpan ne phir,
Mujhe aapna saathi banaaya
Aur mujhe se nighao mein,
ek hi Sawaal puccha

Is zindagi mein mukaamoein ke pichae,
Bhaagte Bhaagte kahan nikal aaya tu

Is zindagi mein chehre par chehre chadate-chadate,
Kahan bhool aaya aapni muskharahatoein ko tu

Aaj Bachpan ne phir,
Mujhe aapna saathi banaaya
Aur mujhe se nighao mein,
ek hi jawaab manga

Ki kab aayega tu vapas,
Aapni panah mein...
Aapni panah mein...

Kyu...

Din kaata nahi,
Raat kaatti hai.

Zindagi apne saamne hi,
Apni aabru ko katra katra..
Karti nazar aati hai.

Inhi kaatronne mein,
Zindagi aapne ko chupha kar...
Roti hai.

Phir bhi Nazaarein,
Saath nahi dena chahati.

Nazaarein bus khamosh,
Dil ke roodan ko nazarandaaz kar,
Aapne mein hi kho jaati hai.

Kyu?

Dance of raindrops

I am sitting on the edge of two world. One which is completely imbibed in rain, and others which wants rain to stop. Rain just touching everything, it is trying to color everything in its color..... Mountains never been so green as they do now..... Rivers, brookes , streams, lakes, ponds never shown so much energy as they do now. Everything is charged up in other world.

I am still sitting on edge of the world watching the increasing influence of rain....... moments after moments. I have full confidence that these stone surrounding me will not going to color in the colors of rain.... Rain also understand this and then it shown me its different color..... Color of creation. In courtyard as rain touches stones, it changes itself into tiny droplets which run over the surface as if ballad dancers performing there act. These tiny ballad dancer are shining like diamonds who are trying to make world best arrangement. Music of nature just encouraging them to give there best performance.

Only thing is its on the other side of the world.

Movie which proves itself to be worth million

After long time, watched a very nice movie with normal story but then also it is powerful, remarkable and awesome. Movie which is totally dominated by great acting and powerful screenplay. Million dollar baby - a movie reckon with supererb acting from all lead actors. This movie revolves around three characters - a person who is master in creating fighters, a person who has glorious past but now surviving with scar and a person who has great fighting spirit for achieving what she wants in her life. Best part of whole movie is how all this three characters compliment each other and makes each other to come stronger in their weak times.
This movie is really treat to watch. This is one movie which will going to touch your heart as it progresses. One of the best out of Clint Eastwood's lot. Watch for acting, watch for relationships created between mentor and follower, follower and encourager.

Survival on the edge of Living

Honnermardu trip with fifteen angels was one of my best trips. For four days my life was so simple. Now when I look back, I am unable to answer a simple question - "Life which I lived for four days is my real life or life which i am living from my childhood is real". The latter is a life which can't be sustained without dependencies; dependencies which we have only created, for maintaining our living status. While I was talking to one of my friend, about this experience, he revealed a great point of view about "living versus surviving". What does a human want if he just leaves his or her living status? Food, isn't it?? Surviving is basic for a human and of attaining this; he or she is always capable. As living comes into picture, problems start. Creation of layers starts. A sense of presence starts. A sense of "survival of the fittest" starts. And this starts race, rage, violence, agony, depression etc.

When I was on four days of nirvana, I didn't have to care for my presentation, my status. I was like a free bird. Life is just enjoying with angels in laps of nature. But as I entered concrete jungle automatically all dependencies, layers, constraints started. Living took over survival.

Person/Personality

What today I am talking about, may be cliche, but holds truth. When I am chatting with my friend, on some point she come very straight on hating a person, lets say some Mr X. I feel very surprise, a thought strikes me, how can you hate a person? Likes and dislike can be attributed to his/her distinct characteristics or habits. You can single out person's habits or characteristics, but its really impossible to hate person. If you ask any person why he likes or dislikes a person, reasons are always person's attributes. So why person should be blame on that. Anyone can comment on his/her habits and characteristics. He/she has full freedom to like or dislike anyone attributes but no right to comment on person.
May be I am trying to see individual and his/her personality differently. But this cliche solves lots of unbearable state of mind.